Tara

I am Self-Trust.

Grandmother and Hawk

We are the wisdom keepers of embodied wisdom and discernment.

Retrograde Gate of Descent

March 28, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Pisces, still in Her retrograde phase.

The tool, the guide, and the gift:

My tool that appeared to me was a bow and arrow.

What I needed in order to use it was steadiness and intention.

The figure I saw began as the great Sphinx but became Isis.

The object in the water was an Apple. I decided to keep it, but in exchange, I had to give up my fear.

First Gate of Descent

April 24, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Pisces

Venus is high in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Crown Chakra gate.

At this gate, She releases attachment to needing the agreement of others with my choices, letting go of self doubt and making space for self trust.

Working with Water:

I have played with speaking into the water in a glass, speaking words out loud and allowing the resonance of my words to imbue the water with the energy of love and self trust, blessing this water such that after drinking it, my cells would be permeated with the intention of love and self trust.

Second Gate of Descent

May 23, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Aries

Venus is high in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Third Eye Chakra gate.

Working with Fire:

Fire work took place during the early period of the summer when I took my children camping. My favorite part of camping is the campfire. I’ll stoke the fire till after everyone else has gone to sleep, and I’ll stay burning all the firewood till the last embers are barely holding on.

Finding that perfect balance of oxygen to wood fuel, adding even more raw energy into potentized gathered energy in just the right amount; I can stoke the fire all night, my wood runs out sooner than my enthusiasm.

We got rained out the last night we were there, and I couldn’t have my fire. I lamented that I wouldn’t be able to do this again until next years camping trip. But then realized I could do this in my back yard whenever I wanted. We once had a fire pit, but it rusted, and a new one was never brought in to replace the one we threw out. I’ve decided I will invest in a new copper fire pit, so that it will never rust. And I can joyously tend to my fire henceforth, never to be thwarted for all too long by weather.

The Third Gate of Descent

June 22, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Taurus

Venus is high in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Throat Chakra gate.

The gift of Earth: Physical touch… the warm embrace, or lingering fingertips on the backs or shoulders of my children, nuzzling into their necks and taking in all their essence, tracing the lines of their faces with my hands around their cheeks. As we are all made of this earth, the minerals and star dust of the ages, I deepened into the appreciation and the love of their physical matter.

The Fourth Gate of Descent

July 21, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Gemini

Venus is high in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Heart Chakra gate.

The Fifth Gate of Descent

August 20, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Cancer

Venus descends in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Solar Plexus Chakra gate.

The Sixth Gate of Descent

September 19, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Leo

Venus descends in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Sacral Chakra gate.

The Seventh Gate of Descent

October 19, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Libra

Venus is low in the morning sky, shining brightly as Morning Star. She meets with the moon at the Root Chakra gate.

The Eighth Gate of Descent

November 19, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Scorpio

Venus crosses the horizon line, entering into the Underworld on November 24, 2025 in Scorpio.

The Ascent

May 18, 2026: Venus meets with the moon in Cancer, solar plexus gate

Who am I now? What is my Passionate Purpose?

My Why:

I want to age gracefully.

My What:

A large part of that path for meis to live as healthily as I can, doing my part to make the best choices to decide to move, how to move, what I eat and consume, and keeping myself in hormonal balance. I have maintained a resistance training regimen for the past decade, but with the recent loss of my menstrual cycle and now working a primarily sedentary job, I decided I was needing to take a multiprong approach to shaking up my metabolism.

My How:

I first cut out all ultra processed foods from my diet, and established a high fat, high protein, low low carb diet, calling it Carnivore Lite (essentially it’s the ultimate elimination diet). I have added sprinting into my workout regimen. I have started taking ownership over my metabolic health when it comes to my Thyroid, learning more about what are healthy levels to expect in each of my thyroid hormones and advocating for myself with my healthcare provider to not just expect the minimum markers of health but the optimum. All of these changes have been taking place coincidentally when my last menstrual cycle abruptly stopped several months ago, ushering in yet even more hormonal changes that I am hoping to take the edge off of with these intentional actions.

I have seen amazing changes in some aspects, and I have not yet seen some other aspects change at all. It can be somewhat discouraging, because I am doing ALL THE THINGS! But this is not something I’m doing for a finite amount of time just to achieve a result. It’s just like when I started resistance training a decade ago: I not only embarked on a new adventure in trying to figure out how to put on an appreciable amount of muscle on my frame at the time, but I was also becoming someone I did not know yet. I had made a choice to become someone I hadn’t yet fully realized I would be capable of choosing for myself. And so the same is happening now.

I will just walk this path, and as slow as it can be…. I choose to water and tend my actions, my choices, lovingly and indefinitely because it’s just who I am and what I do.