Within the Underworld
December 19, 2025: Venus meets with the moon in Sagittarius
Venus is not to be seen.
The Gatekeeper Speaks
This is it child. This is the moment. The moment that has been calling to you, that you have longed for. And feared. The moment to release, let go, dissolve. To shed the skin that no longer fits. To step out of the identities that chafe, the expectations that now ring false.
You have traveled, honing your fire, breathing into claiming your passionate purpose, releasing the ancient wounds that have kept you chained to a particular path. You have learned to release into intimacy with your experience. You have learned so much about yourself and your fire. Are you willing to release even this?
Come with me child. Come and enter into my dark. There is nowhere else to go, nowhere else to be. Are you willing to let go, stop trying, stop striving to figure it all out? Are you willing to risk dissolution? You will expand into the greatest reaches of the universe, your atoms colliding and merging and becoming one with all that is. You will see and know and be. But you cannot make anything happen. You must release, let go. Are you willing?
When I let go of what I am, I become what I may be.
-Lao Tzu
Black Essence
The Ecstasy of Release
My experience of my existence is all there is, and this existence is the presence of death itself. The awareness now is that the mysterious blackness is the face of death, which is aloneness—a peaceful, pure aloneness. The aloneness begins to reveal a quality that I do not usually associate with aloneness. I begin to feel an exquisite intimacy, as if the atoms of my consciousness have become its very essence. Death seems to coincide with both intimacy and aloneness. The mysterious blackness of death brings aloneness and intimacy together, joining them into one quality. There is a sweet and delicate intimacy in the heart as I contemplate death and see the presence of blackness.
Contemplating the intimacy and sweetness pervading my chest, I realize that my body has lost its usual boundaries; it is now all of existence. I am the room, everything in the room, and everything beyond the room, all as one presence. The sense of what I am is an immense, adamantine crystal presence, an indivisible totality. This totality which I experience as my body is all of the universe. Also, curiously, at the location of my physical chest this unity of existence is a sweet intimacy.
The contemplation of death has led me to the mysterious blackness underlying all of existence, and this has made it possible for me to experience the unity of Being as my body.
-A.H. Almaas, Luminous Night’s Journey
Inquiry Questions
Take some time to drop in, deepen into the quiet of your unfolding soul, and explore what is here now in your awareness, as you embody Venus as Morning Star.
What is dying in you now that you must complete?
How do you experience letting go? What do you fear in releasing attachment? What do you fear in the unknown?
What is your experience of trust? What would be needed in order to trust something greater than yourself?
What is your own unique lens through which to explore this Essence of Black, the ecstasy of release, of Venus in Aries? With whom do you journey this cycle?
Ritual Space
Take some time to drop into ritual space as you receive the initiation of this gate. We step into liminal space, time out of time, in ritual space. We connect with the lineage of those who have watched the stars for millennia, receiving the gift of Venus's journey, aligning ourselves with the cycles that are already unfolding. We remember our nature as beings who cycle, change, transform. We remember how to receive knowing directly, rather than needing others to tell us what is so.
You may wish to create an altar, light a candle, and anoint yourself with oils. Sit with this gate, the quality of Essence that is being called forward. As you deepen in surrendering to receiving initiation, ask who would come to guide you in your journey with this quality of Essence? What of yourself do you offer in return? What is calling to be set down at this gate? What pattern, belief, way of being in this world, is challenged by this quality of Essence? What are you ready to release in order to deepen more fully in this journey?
What gift is revealed in the releasing of this pattern, belief, or way of being? What has more freedom to be itself in this release? You may see this directly, or may need to live with this initiation throughout the whole cycle and come back and answer this question before entering into the next gate. You may wish to draw cards to receive guidance in this way.
As you complete your experience in ritual space, take time to offer thanks and adoration to the archetype, to Venus, to your personal guide that arose for this journey, to your ancestors and lineage. Offer thanks to the land that holds and nourishes and grounds you. In the giving and receiving we remember our deep connectedness to all beings everywhere, throughout time and space.
Remember and Record
Ah, so deeply nourishing being with all of you. Take time to write down what the Queen of Death said to you. Write down how She told you to remember how to come back to releasing and trusting the dark. Take time to notice your capacity to embody Her, speak with Her voice. This is our path of embodying the Divine Feminine.
We are in a liminal space, a space between. Here in the Underworld, in the dark, we experience the solar cycle’s return of the light. We celebrate the dark and the light held together, the Creation Cycle and our Venus Cycle of reclaiming wholeness.
In this space between, it is not yet time to do, to know, to see clearly. It is a time to savor the dark, the flickers of light in the dark, to see shapes and patterns and wonderings in the shifting shadows. Savor the in between. Let Winter teach you how to rest. And wait on planning out the next year. It is not time for new year’s intentions. That will come soon enough.
Play with releasing into Black Essence. Use the breath, following the exhale into stillness. Stay in the exhale until you feel the vibration of ecstasy arising from the stillness. Allow space to permeate your being, embodying the universe.
If you want to share what the Queen of Death spoke through you, or any images that stand out to you, I can record these on your webpage.
Many blessing to all of you during these holy days of dark and light.
